On the Double

I am going on my second week of doubles. Ouch!

I had a body image revelation. I want to look hot. And to me that means having great abs (that I can see), and a fit and toned body. I had this idea before but somehow thought that I would have some attachment to ego or be arrogant about being hot. I realized that is a terrible way to look at it. I am working hard on my body and yes I want to be at a place where I will show it off and be proud of my work. I am not going to turn into a jerk because I look good... I have no clue where i got the idea that getting a six pac comes with a bad attitude, but it is no longer in my mindset. 

So with my complete acceptance and willingness to have the body I want, I have decided to step it up to doubles. I am sore. It is hard work. and I am keeping a positive attitude and I am set on my goals.

Hungry!

I think my metabolism has been picking up. I no longer am timing my eating to every hour, I am hungry throughout the day. The last two mornings I have woken up around 8am very hungry. I get up and make a shake and go back to bed. I a night person so 8 is pretty early. If I can I am going to work out while I am up, or at the very least do some yoga. I can already see the results from this round of working out. I am on day 19. I am heavily considering doing doubles. I have tried working out twice during the weight days of last week, and yes I am more tired and more sore, but it seems to be manageable. I am going to continue to do doubles on weight days this week and possibly on recovery week. I am going to reference the doubles plan. I have been adding Cardio X to my day. I like it. I sweat, get my heart rate up and feel great after doing it. I also want to get back to where I was at before my concussion faster. I am about 5lbs away from that goal. I am more concerned about how my clothes feel and how I look than weight. I feel like I am putting on, and toning muscle right now so I do not expect my weight to reveal much anyway.

Amazing Lentil Loaf

Like all the recipes in here this is my original work and I ask that you give me credit if you re-post or publish this ENJOY!!

Lentil Loaf
1 1/2 cups red or mixed red and yellow lentils
2 slices of bread
1 cup walnuts
1 or 2 cloves garlic
1/2 white or yellow onion
2 "eggs" (1/4 teaspoon xanthan gum, 1/2 teaspoon potato starch, 1/4 cup soy or rice milk, 1/2 teaspoon oil)
1 teaspoon baking soda
about 10 white, crimini or baby bella mushrooms
1 teaspoon salt
1 teaspoon pepper
1 teaspoon garlic granuals
1 teaspoon onion powder
1/2 teaspoon paprika
1/4 cup oil
24 oz tomato sauce (sweeter tomato sauce works best)
1/2 cup flour
1 tablespoon agave
Large mixing bowl
Casserole dish

Soak 1 1/2 cups lentils overnight
Drain lentils and set aside
Preheat oven to 350 degrees
Make "eggs" whisk ingredients together and let stand

In a food processor pulse bread until fine, remove to bowl
In a food processor pulse walnuts until fine, but not powdery, remove to bowl
In a food processor pulse mushrooms until finely chopped. do not over mix. remove to bowl
In a food processor pulse garlic, add onion until coarsely chopped add to bowl
add seasonings to bowl
add flour to bowl
add baking soda to bowl
In a food processor pulse lentils until split into pieces of about halves and quarters. you may need to stir lentils and mix. Do not over mix lentils. should be course and have texture. Add to bowl and mix
add 12 oz of tomato sauce to bowl and mix
add eggs to bowl and mix
add 1/8 cup oil and mix

mix 1/4 cup of tomato sauce and 1/8 cup oil in bottom of dish and spread around
glob mixture into dish and smooth out
Pour remaining tomato sauce on top evenly, add agave and spread evenly on top. you may also drizzle catchup on top for extra flavor.

bake for 20 minutes covered and 30 minutes uncovered

I have not experimented with making this in a bread pan. I have made half this recipe in the same size pan, it was shorter, but turned out very well. with the half recipe I baked uncovered for 40 minutes.

trying something new

I am exploring my relationship to food. I love food. I love cooking even more. I have decided to try to eat something small every 1-2 hours. I have a bowl that would hold about 8-10 fl oz that I have been using as my portion control. I set an alarm to go off every hour, and I either have something left over, start cooking, or have a shake. In addition to protein shakes I am trying out Garden of Life's Raw Meal. It has many minerals and vitamins and tastes pretty good. RAWMEAL . I have also been staying with the mostly whole foods diet. Lentils are a friend of mine. Red Lentil soup is one of my favorites. I have also created a meatloaf that is actually really good. both recipes to come.
I am on the third day of eating 10 times a day. I feel great. I feel hungry about every hour and am satisfied with the small bowl portion.

Round 2

Okay.. So my results were short lived. I got a concussion and could not work out for two months. In addition to not working out my bruised brain was telling my body to eat fat and sugar. Makes sense, the brain is made of fat and runs on sugar. My hard work was fading fast.
So I am now on round 2 week 2 of P90X. And I am very excited about this! From receiving some positive response from this blog I have decided to blog some more. I will be posting soon! BRING IT!